Posted on September 14, 2014
“I have lost all of my self esteem. I used to believe in myself, but not anymore.”
DG: In my experience, self esteem is gained by doing esteemable actions. That could look like living in your integrity and with great compassion for yourself – especially and particularly when you feel most unlovable. Please commit to a 15 minute brisk walk every single day, no matter the weather, for 90 days. On these walks, pick up a stone and put it in your pocket. When you arrive home, make a mark on it. Use a Sharpie or some other permanent way of marking. Collect them in a jar that you keep by your mirror. At the end of 90 days, continue your walks except put a stone in a place that calls to you. On that 90th (180th) day of walks, deliver your last stone to someone who is suffering.
Token: Here is your first stone.*
“Feeling unsure about an upcoming major career change. Afraid I won’t be able to be good at something new.”
DG: Think back to a time when you were brand new at something and completely failed and/or felt embarrassed or ashamed. Have it? First, take comfort in knowing that this question could be asked to absolutely anyone, aged 5 or older, and they would have such a memory. That pain and fear connect us. Please hold that memory – that pain – and then take the hand of the you you were then. Invite that you indoors into your most favorite sitting place. Is that you very young? Offer your lap. If not, offer him/her a cup of something delicious and get one for your current you, too. Are you warm and comfortable? Now what will you say to your earlier you to comfort him/her? I bet it’s kind and encouraging. Compassionate. Listen to your own words.
On a day not too long from today, take yourself, by yourself, to one of your most favorite place. Take with you a small spade or spoon and a clear jar with a lid. When you arrive at this special place, say out loud, “I am new again. I feel afraid, but I am courageous. Thank you fear for trying to protect me, but I got this.” Plunge your space into the earth then place its contents in the jar. Put the lid on the jar and carry it home. Once home, put the jar by the place you sleep. Let the soil of your special place help ground you.
Token: Here is a vial of Smoke Farm. Carry this magical place with you and allow it to comfort and ground you.*
*Had you received this prescription at the farm, you would have also received this token. If you wish to have this token, please send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org for instructions on how to get it. Thank you.